To blog or not to blog; MBA, Career & Other updates

It feels nostalgic. It does indeed. This place used to be my another home way back in 2008-09 season. Nevertheless, it is good to be back and write something. In all these years, I have come a long way in regard of my career and other stuff. I may get promoted and I have also started a few websites. Apart from that, I am working on a small start up. Come on! start up is always a small. Unless you are born in the families of Tata or Birla.

Continue with CAT prep. or to not was the biggest question. Rather it is still around my mind. Some friends have suggested me to appear for GMAT and get out of the country. For that's not a solution, I think, I would not burn my ass this time by spending a lot of time in preparations. Of the late, I have started believing firmly that CAT is not just a common sense game, but it is also about the time your going through. Don't worry, I wont get philosophical here. It's harmful for the readership I know.

Though I said I won't be preparing this year that doesn't mean I am not throwing my hat for the contendership. I will and I must. Difference being, I will enjoy doing what I love. Blogging, developing websites, taking up SEO and Usability projects and certainly, continue doing my job at L&T. This place indeed has given me something that I must return before I quit. Precisely that's what I am doing now. Now don't think I am after quitting this place.

On a career path, I am pretty much on a accelerated road. Getting hands on multiple areas is a huge advantage. More over, you start to understand business process. And you start getting answer for most dreaded question. Why you want to do an MBA?

My mom says enough of this CATmadness and dad isn't talking much about it. Reason? They are after serious job of getting me married this year. Woahaa..it's not time yet guys. It certainly not.

In between all this, I have registered for free mocks of TIME and IMS. Let's see where you get to when you actually don't want to reach anywhere. :-) It will be good experience and seriously for first time in 4 years, now I understand what they mean by "Don't make CAT game of life. Keep it at enough distance."

With this, I conclude this post on a note of sorry for not updating this place. I won't call it a blog. I will be happy to know your CAT stories and things that keep you motivated.

So, the journey is still ON!!

And the journey still continues...

Yet another CAT results. Yet another unexpected result. It seems IIM dream is delayed by one more year. I had prepared hard this year. I was getting good percentile also. Even got 99.9 in one of the mocks. But the percentile I have got on CAT 2009 is disturbing and harmful to confidance.
QA: 68

DI: 58V

A: 92
OA: 76.87
Above numbers are what I am sailing with now. I had never expected percentiles this low. I was damn sure about QA tht out of 16 attempts I would get at least 12 correct in worst case. DI, I accept I was doubtful about and as I always say, when I am doubtful of something, it turns out disasterous everytime. Verbal, I am not sure what to write about it. Should I even write and maintain this blog in english? I am not that bad to get horrible percentile like 92. It is my strongest section.
What next?
This quesetion is bugging my badly since results have come up. Sometimes I feel I no more want to continue what I am doing right now. I want to quit doing job in IT, I do not want to work on my websites or anything else.
Desperation and dejection is obvious when you put in so much of efforts. But that does not mean I will give up on my dreams. I will not. I have certainly taken aback but my heart is not ready to accept defeat. It may sound crazy but I may appear one more time. Till the time I get into IIMs or I get a chance to chuck them out.
It seems I need a lot of introspection. All the best to those who have calls.
Ameya

CAT re-test on 30th Jan 2010

29th Nov. 2009, when I appeared for CAT 09. 30th Jan 2010, I am again going to appear for CAT 2010. During the earlier attempt, my computer had gone wild and off. May be blessings in disguise. Don't know.
I am writing this post to retrospect. So many mocks, so many downfalls, dejections, rejections & one more attempt everytime. As I approach my 4th attempt at CAT, I have almost no feeling or at least I am pretending so.
I had a discussion with my faculty who is also an IIM A gard. I said to him, "I think there is still some problem with my basics". He said, "I don't think so. All you lack is keeping your head in those 3 hrs, for which I cannot come to rescue". He suggested me to take 3 mocks with no expectations and no string attached. I followed what he said. Neverthless to say, my performance was good enough to boost moral.
As I come to closing of this post, I want to share a few nuggets with you. Everyone says don't make CAT a game of life and death. One never understands it unless one faces failures & understand the importance of relations, family,friends, happiness & love. I also took time to understand this. Throughout these years, failures taught me how to live in a better way. How not to lose hope and accept what I am. I am not writing this post with any motive behind. I just want to write what I have been through.
I loved this journey and I don't know when it's going to end. It bother least to me. I must say, I have developed more on personal side. I have learnt to talk to my self and introspect. I have certain values and vision and I am going to follow them for sure.
With this, I bid good bye to all of you who read my blog. Just one line for all of you guys/gals. Don't ever give up on your dreams. Your day will come